Being sick at home sucks

It's not like I'm suffering from anything serious, just some viral thing that's given me a sore throat, coughing, oodles of phlegm (nice) and general weakness. But the doctor has recommended just staying home and resting until it's fully cleared, and I figure I may as well, seeing as I've been too sick too often lately. But I can't help feeling a little guilty and MAN AM I BORED!!! There is just so much television a girl can watch, even with Sky movies! I keep checking email in the hope that someone, somewhere will write to me, but Murphy's Law is in operation, and my Inbox is empty :(

It's been an interesting few days though... I have had quite a few guilt issues come up. I wonder why, and why this timing. I guess coming up for Christmas and the New Year is always a time when you tend to reflect on all that's happened and think about what changes you'd like to make for the better. Weird thing is I am getting guilt memories from years ago! They've all come back to haunt me! Things like losing touch with people I used to go to school with for no good reason. Things like being ill at times when I've been needed at work (you don't need to be Freud to realise there's something in that, especially now!). Eek. Some of these memories make me writhe with discomfort, you know. And guilt is a horrible thing to carry around. I mean, don't get me wrong, I haven't killed anyone or committed any crimes or anything of that nature... I guess being a sensitive person just makes you feel things more keenly on others' behalf.

Well, time to give that guilt the boot. I don't need it in my life, it does absolutely nothing for me, and is probably making me weak or ill on some small level. So I have asked for some of these people's email addresses, and re the work issue, well I think that bears some thinking about. God knows I don't love my job, that's why I'm trying to break into the writing industry. And being sick hasn't exactly helped that along. Oh well. Hopefully my next post will see me back to my chirpy self, with something positive and enlightening to say. I hope :)